By Megan Vengala
Four simple letters. By definition, fear as a verb means to be afraid of something as likely to be dangerous, painful, or threatening. As a noun, fear is defined as an unpleasant emotion derived from fear as a verb.
This unpleasant emotion, at one point in my life, almost took over who I was. Fear of the unknown, fear of the what if’s, fear of the unpredictable outcome. All of which stopped me dead in my tracks. Preventing me from moving forward. Preventing me from experiencing joy. Preventing me from being able to see, detect, be consciously aware of God’s ability to take care of me. Always.
Then one day, out of nowhere, God spoke in his still, small, commanding voice. As I looked into my daughter’s eyes, my heart within whispered, “All I want to do is take care of you.” God whispered into this fearful heart, “Consider the lilies.” And a chunk of fear vanished that day. If he can take care of the lilies of the field, how much more can he take care of me?
A few months later, still in a fearful place, not completely free, I listened to a spiritual father as he taught on God’s nature and character. The words that dug their way deep into my soul were, “God’s got an infinite imagination to solve every situation you find yourself in.” He doesn’t run out of ideas. He has more than plan A or plan B or plan Z. He’s got plan A to plan Infinity to choose from. Another chunk of fear melted away that day.
God never created me to live in fear. He has given me power, love and a sound mind to combat fear. He has loved me with his perfect love, which casts out all fear. When I choose fear over love, I am telling God he is unable, he is not loving, he doesn’t see all the details. He’s not enough.
I now look at that four letter word that tried to take me out and say, not today. Not this time. Not this situation. God is enough. He takes care of lilies. His creative imagination will work this out for my good.
Not today fear. Today I choose another four letter word. Love.
The best four letter word there is.