the moment my anxiety left
I took myself on a two day getaway to retreat from it all and regroup. Thankfully, COVID didn’t prevent me from traveling an hour down the road to hunker down at a hotel, spending the afternoon floating in the pool & soaking up some much needed vitamin D. Anxiety and confusion had become too loud in my mind. I needed to process life. Lying there on that bright plastic float, I looked up at the clouds passing by and thought about my life. The world around me and all of the heartbreak I am surrounded by (racism, sex trafficking, and covid to name a few) filled my thoughts. Also, my own personal life and the issues, struggles, and fears I am facing within it… the constant fight to better myself mentally, physically, and spiritually.
It’s easy to fall into despair and be left feeling hopeless.
Anxiety had stolen my ability to enjoy the moment.
I began to silently pray asking God to be near me and shine light on the different issues I was focusing on. Every time I opened my eyes, I noticed the sky painted a different picture for me. One moment, the sun was shining brightly, bringing warmth to my skin, without a cloud to be found. The sky was bright blue and rich and calming. Suddenly, the sky was full of different clouds of every shape, shielding me from the sun’s warmth. Then, big puffy rainclouds were above me looking as if rain would pour down on me any minute.
God spoke. He said, “The sky changes from moment to moment… likewise, the circumstances and environment of your life can change.”
I felt hope flood through me.
Just because the struggles in my own life felt never ending and not changing overnight the way I would like, I didn’t need to make way for despair and choose negativity and defeat.
God was right there all along…waiting for me to come to Him and lay my burdens and anxiety at His feet.
Suddenly I was completely aware of my need for something beyond myself. Aware of my need for His strength. Though He made me to be a strong and resilient woman, I will still always reach the end of myself and need Him to get through.
That day was the day I laid it all down. Finally, it was time to find peace within myself with struggles and circumstances by giving it to God and letting Him help me through.
And so, that was the moment that peace came. Comfort came. Hope arrived. Stress, worry, and anxiety no longer had room in my heart or mind. No longer welcome to steal my wellbeing.
In a flash, the sky above me had changed.
Perspective shifted. Subsequently, circumstances shifted.
My heart went from despair and hopelessness to total comfort, hope, contentment.
I had found my fight again and I got out of that pool as the warrior God had created me to be.
Is anxiety stealing abundant life from you?
Today is the day for change. Today is the day for your perspective to shift. You need your sky to paint a different picture for you.
In Matthew 11:28-30, Jesus says, “Come to me, all who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
Ask God to come into your situation, your issues, and shift your perspective. Allow Him to fill you with hope. No matter what you are going through, God can change your perspective, and shine a new light on everything. The sky above is shifting its picture every blink of an eye. Similarly, your perspective can transform instantly.
He cares for your burdens. And He cares about your anxiety.
Hope is not lost, it just needs to be found. Ask Him for it.